Dumb nothingness

It happened. We ran out of toilet paper today. I held it for a while, then realized there was a box of tissues sitting next to me. Dummy.

I bought 2 pens today. Not just pens, but felt tip pens with tiny tips- perfect for my small writing. I bought a black one and a red one. They make writing fun.

I can't function until I take a nap. I'm dying. brb.

I set an alarm on my phone that I wouldn't sleep more than 30 minutes or so, but of course didn't listen to it when it told me to wake up. I slept for a good hour and a half. That felt great.

Pointless, pointless blog. I feel like I have so much to say and no words to say it with.

I've successfully been taking mood-notes for the past 4 days. When I feel very good or very bad or very blah I write down what I have or havent done, who I have or haven't seen, what I've thought about, etc, sofar that day. Each different thing has a plus or minus sign by it, indicating if it was a positive happening or negative happening. I'm already seeing some patterns and it has only been 4 days. I'm excited to do this for another good 10 days or so, then to compile a list of the positives and a list of the negatives. This will help me realize what I do that makes me happy. Yes.

It's 8:03. I haven't done anything since Lunch. During that passing time I felt good about doing absolutely nothing, but now I wish I had done my physics, readings, and writings. Nothing is important for tomorrow, directly, but I know I should be doing it. Dang it. I haven't any motivation.

I'm sick of this blahg.

Physics (10.19.7)

I wrote a poem today. I don't write, really. And I especially don't write poems. But I did, just for fun. So don't make fun of me. It's called Physics

Physics

The magic white in your hand
scratching at the eternal scroll of black
brings you such pleasure and joy-
scribbling in caps 'til you reach the brick wall,
going crazy with that white in your hand.
I wish I could have some white for my hand
to write and scribble and write and scribble
until my face beams as bright as yours
with ultimate satisfaction and happiness.

It was better at 7:30 this morning.

Mood Notes (10.18.7)

I am in a Really good mood right now. And I'm not sure why. As someone said in a blog, "i've been learning about myself for almost 19 years, and i still don't know what makes me happy." Since I read that, which was actually only today I think, I have been thinking about when I am happy and when I am sad and why I am happy or sad. It is a Lot easier to know what makes me sad than to know what makes me happy. I am going to start taking notes on my mood and what previous events influenced it. Then I'll try to write out what makes me happy and what does not.
The end.