So I’m obsessed with myself. So what.

107 things about Jessie Gilmore

1. I don't have a middle name, but my mother said she would be honored when I asked if I could bear her name. So my real name is Jessica Judy Gilmore.

2. I am currently sitting in my once bedroom with my little brother Rob. We just put up Christmas lights around the ceiling and are listening to Anathallo.

3. I lived in the same home for 18 years before I moved to college.

4. The scar I can first remember getting is from a hot glue gun.

5. 7 is my lucky/favorite number.

6. I can only remember having 2 dolls growing up. I never owned a Barbie.

7. My first kiss weirded me out and I decided I never wanted to kiss again.

8. When I was 3 I got lost from my family in Las Vegas in a big pyramid.

9. When I picture myself in my mind's eye, I see my 9th grade self.

10. I've had 5 different bedrooms in my home. The one upstairs, the flowery walled one, the green one, the dungeon down the hall, and the closet under the stairs for 6 months.

11. When I played soccer my number was 9. My lacrosse number was 24 twice.

12. At Flaming Gorge I slipped as I was inching across an edge of a cliff. I slid some feet down but somehow stopped. A big rock bounced down making a lot of noise and my family thought I fell. If I was the rock I would have been dead. I came out with a few scratches instead.

13. I prefer odd numbers to even numbers.

14. In 7th grade, a girl said, "Jessie Gilmore... Your name sounds like it will someday be written in the stars..." I've always liked that idea.

15. I don't really know what the Peace Corps is.

16. I am the 6th of 8 children. I like being 6th.

17. A drunk girl wanted to make out with me. I said, "Gross. No." Then I hid the rainbow bag I was carrying around.

18. I've never seen Titanic.

19. I swear on my life that a couple friends and I saw 8 reindeer connected with bells trotting through the orchard by my house one winter.

20. My siblings are some of my best friends.

21. When I see digital clocks I try to find ways the numbers relate to each other. (8:42- 8¸4=2)

22. I often don't step on cracks, but can if I want.

23. The first boy I remember having a crush on died in a slide accident. He used to walk his bike down hills and we giggled at him. But he was a cutie.

24. Once I climbed a really tall tree into thin, thin branches to get my friend's kite. I felt like a hero.

25. I distinctly remember giving a book report in front of the class in 3rd grade and not being able to pronounce "enemies." I tried several times but kept saying eminies. I felt embarrassed.

26. In 7th grade my lunch consisted of maple bars or breadsticks from ala cart and
a peach papaya drink. It's no wonder I was chubby in Jr. High.

27. I come close to tears when I get in trouble to this day, especially by teachers or other school authority.

28. I play lacrosse and enjoy it.

29. When I was 8 or 9, I peeled open a gift under the Christmas tree from my sister to me a few days before Christmas. It was a poly pocket.

30. My friends and I tried to dig a 5-foot hole in the orchard. We were going to
put wood over the top of it and make the best fort ever. We only got about 2 feet down. To keep it a secret, we'd say, "Let's go watch Holes." That meant, "Let's go dig." Clever, I know.

31. I don't usually cry when I find out about a death. I often will later, but it takes a long time for my emotions to catch up with death. I feel insensitive and rude because of it.

32. I don't remember having an imaginary friend.

33. I kissed a girl once when I was in 2nd grade. It was a dare. In the closet.

34. I like reptiles more than any other animal.

35. The smell of heaters reminds me of Christmas.

36. I imagine things like death or kidnapping happening to me all the time.

37. I like the name Conrad.

38. I felt like the odd one out of my family for many years, but now I feel like I fit into a perfectly sized and shaped spot.

39. I might serve a mission some day. But I'd want to go to Chicago. Or
something. Not the Salt Lake City Visitor's Center. Or something.

40. When I was little I wanted to be a vet.

41. I could easily be a high school math teacher.

42. Right now I want peppermint ice cream but we only have orange sherbet- practically opposites.

43. I broke my pinky finger when I flipped forward over a scooter.

44. I want to live car less in a city when I grow up. Salt Lake City will do, but New York or some other famous city of the sort would be wonderful.

45. In elementary school I was on the Backstreet Boys side of the Backstreet
Boys- N'sync craze.

46. I think Christopher Walkin is a great actor.

47. I'll be mad if the North Salt Lake refineries ever don't put up their white light Christmas Star.

48. I am very protective of my little brothers. I get mad when they watch rated R movies or swear or do something I don't like. It kind of bothers me that I'm that way, so I try not to blow up all the time, but sometimes I can't help it.

49. The best Churro I have ever had was from Old Town in California. It had wonderful butterscotch caramel sauce inside.

50. I don't like Cowboys very much at all.

51. I hide behind my glasses and feel exposed when I don't have them on.

52. I'm a back seat driver. And when in shotgun I look over my shoulder when changing lanes on the freeway. I feel annoying when I catch myself doing it so I try not to.

53. I have a slight food aversion to butter.

54. We just picked up my sister Sara from the airport and I am not wearing my seatbelt because all 4 of us called the front row in the Suburban so we are sharing
4 people to 3 seats.

55. I feel that we need to do something about Global Warming.

56. I miss being a Tom Boy.

57. I don't know if I am a Democrat or Republican.

58. I drive fast on the freeway and like to change lanes and hit small gaps to be fastest.

59. I cry when I lose, like losing in Lacrosse State Championships 2 years in a row.

60. I don't believe that there is one person out there perfect for each person.

61. I make friends with boys much easier than with girls.

62. When I was in Jr. High I said I'd never wear make up in my life.

63. Almost every day on the way to school in 5th grade a friend and I went to Dick's Ace and bought penny candies.

64. My favorite Halloween costume was when I was a spider.

65. I didn't see The Incredibles for a few months after it came out because everyone loved it so much that I didn't want to love it so I avoided it. I'm still trying to figure that out about myself.

66. I don't like war. But I support our troops. It's wrong to protest at a soldier's funeral.

67. I like art and hope to be better at it someday.

68. I'd love to go skydiving.

69. I'm eating popcorn and wiping my hand on the couch between each handful because I don't want my keys to be oily.

70. If I could change anything about myself it'd be my skin.

71. I look a little like my mom and brother John who both look a little like Julie Andrews.

72. I'm good at guitar hero.

73. My first guy friend was Ryan Erickson. We used to play with Legos all the time.

74. I think it's funny when girls hyphen their names when they get married. I love my last name, but if I'm willing to spend the rest of eternity with a man, I should be willing to take on his name.

75. I played the Clarinet when I was in 7th grade but didn't keep it up because I didn't like my band teacher, Mr. Seagull.

76. I am shy when I first meet people but when I feel comfortable I can break out of my shell quickly.

77. I love when I hear or smell something that reminds me of my past or of books I have read.

78. I don't like when my friends make fun of me for writing blogs or making lists or reading books or the newspaper or other things that interest me. It actually makes me want to run away from them or punch them.

79. I liked high school.

80. Less than a year ago I ran away from home and stayed overnight at my friend's/neighbor's house.

81. My numerology number is 36/9. (August 10th, 1898; 8/10/1989; 8+1+0+1+9+8+9= 36; 3+6=9)

82. Although I know little about either, I am interested in Energy and Metaphysics.

83. I love being center of attention. I love being laughed at.

84. I like when people say my name when they say hello or goodbye or just in conversation, but I feel slightly uncomfortable saying others' names. It feels too personal or intimate sometimes.

85. I like making new friends and think I am good at it, but I am bad at keeping them.

86. When I was young, my best friends and I had a tree house. We helped build it. Then we painted the four inside walls. One red, one yellow, one blue, and one purple. I painted the blue one. Then the east winds blew it down years later.

87. My favorite colors are green, brown, blue, red, and black.

88. I am not afraid of heights. I hang a hammock during the summer about 7 feet off the ground and read all day. In 8th grade I built a chair into a tree in the front yard and did my homework in it after school.

89. I have never stolen anything big, only change from siblings' rooms and gum from a broken bubble-gum machine at Dick's Market. I am too afraid to steal anything more, even when I have the desire to.

90. I like talking about myself. I like analyzing myself and people close to me with personality codes or astrology or numerology or whatever I stumble upon.

91. I took gymnastics in 8th and 9th grade but hurt my back on the trampoline one day and have been a grandma ever since. I still jump on the tramp but it hurts every time I do. I love doing back flips though and wish I could do them on the ground. Or at least backhand springs.

92. I isolate myself often from family or friends, not usually in self-pity but because I enjoy being alone.

93. I like hiding money then finding it later. Same with candy and notes.

94. I spy on people through myspace, facebook when I had it, phonebooks, directories, etc. I like seeing where people live or knowing where they work or what not. And I do not think I am alone on this.

95. I lack self-discipline in most aspects of my life.

96. I love funny people, but not if they drown my humor.

97. I am not critical of books or movies. I enjoy almost any book or movie I read or see which makes me feel like I'm lacking something, like my judgment can't be trusted.

98. I have become a very jealous person in the last year and a half. For example, my sister was telling me a story. When she met a boy she has a crush on, he was with two other girls. I asked, who were the other girls? She said just a couple girls from the place he was staying. And she didn't seem to care at all that he was with two other girls, which should be expected. But I, even though I wasn't there and don't know the boy or anything, am already feeling negative or hopeless or critical of the boy because he was with 2 other girls. I didn't used to be like this. It's retarded. And I don't know how to fix it.

99. I like doing sudokus.

100. I used to walk around my home holding a mirror horizontally out in front of me pretending like the ceiling was the floor.

101. I hate using the restroom in the early morning because the toilet seat is always freezing.

102. One of my favorite places on this earth is Flaming Gorge.

103. I have found it common in young lovers to have a "special thing" with 11:11 wishes and shooting stars.

104. The other night I went to Wendy's at 1:something AM with only $1.25 because I just wanted a frosty. I guess the drive through closes at 1, not 2 like I thought. So I went to Wal-Mart and bought a small box of animal crackers for 96 cents instead.

105. I talk out loud to myself a lot. Otherwise my thoughts overlap in my mind and nothing is resolved, just confused.

106. After writing in my journal about the first time I held hands, I drilled a hole through it and padlocked it shut in fear of someone finding out.

107. On the way home from 5th grade one day, Annie Hale and I were taking turns wearing a hoodie backwards with the hood over our face while the other directed the person home. We made it about 7/8 of the way home, but I quit when she purposely directed me into a parked truck.